One Month

My dear daughters,

It's been an entire month since we talked with each other. I miss you both so, so much that it hurts.

How much longer must we wait until your mother unblocks my calls and texts? I feel angry that she is keeping us apart because she and I have disagreed on how often you can talk with me. I feel hurt that I can't hear your voices and know how you're doing. I feel frustrated that you can't hear me when I say I love you. Every day of this past month with you has been stolen from me...days I won't get back...days that you've grown, learned, made new decisions, tried new things, asked questions, laughed and probably faced some hardships.

I keep going back and forth. On one hand, I simply can't wait for your mom to change her mind about us talking or not. The decision isn't her's whether or not we are allowed to talk. I will keep calling everyday at our usual time and writing here.

On the other hand, I want to give your mom the chance to change her mind and accept the fact that I will always be here to love you. I have to believe that she will do the right thing... it's just a matter of time before she realizes the pain she's causing. I think she will let you call me at some point... it's already been a whole month. It can't be much longer... I have to hope that soon there will be a change, and you two will be able to call or text or send a photo or anything just to let me know how you're doing.

I love you both so, very, very much.

Love always,

Dad